Right from the beginning, I felt adoption is the right thing to do. But when I saw that so many parents are waiting and those could be with no child, I felt conflicted on whether I deserve to. Whether it is fair on me to be in the list. I had written two blog posts on the above. The desire to adopt vs the question of being fair remained an unresolved conflict. Many days I had been fighting to resolve this conflict. During my yearly Guru Poornima Pooja offering to Sadhguru, I put forth this turmoil while tears rolled during his Presence. Felt a lot lighter after putting it forth to my guru. To my utter surprise, the next day morning, I got a SMS. "Congratulations! Profile of child/children have been referred. Kindly reserve within 48 hours ..." From CARA. Out of disbelief, I pinched myself to ensure I was not dreaming. Next moment, I was in cloud 9 calling my husband, best friend, family and my heart would not stop fluttering. I spent sleepless nights awaiting for the ...
Here I put in all I want to say, but not really what I could to a real person.